BroKeN ?

What am I broken? Shattered? Lost? Confused? Do questions matter for a heart of glass and mind of stone?

Feels like tore and ripped into pieces both body and soul.........


Crying becomes the lowest thing to express out and it feels useless to what my soul is feeling right now.........



Bound in this shell asks how long? How Long? How Long?.......................




Seems like drowning deep into ocean miles down in the dark and cold dragged by the weights of stones and blocks down..........So deep and I am left out of air..........And lungs are not working anymore.........And dipping totally all into myself...........
All I see that end is so peaceful and lovely........

When living is hurting and taste of it is tasteless.........
And doors seems to be not a way to home.......
And air breathing is heavy.........
And existence doesn't matter anymore........
And when time and space are just dark infinity.........
When ur screams are locked in a locker of memories inside brains.........
Life need not be the way we wanted but it being non-destructive is enough but it won't stop........wont stop this........And I can't stop things coming again and again.........

When seems like there is no tomorrow and present perfect is disturbing to be lived for........What should a soul do? What should I do?......

I don't have the energy to get up and raise my arms to fight........Feels like dead........I'm already dead.....because there is nothing but just dark infinity and It doesn't have a sense of feelings........It is above the senses feeling all senses are long gone..... to even sense and understand..........

What does world what? Reputation? Money? Luxury? Sex? More Sex?...........
And what they don't want is Love? Forgiveness? Compassion? Friendship? Unity? Understanding? Humanity?..............

It is the new trend in human evolution I believe evolving so fast.........

Ur life, not my life and my life not ur life.......
Ur feelings I don't care and my feelings why don't u care?.............
Ask a question and u are keeping a foot on my individual rights........
I can do whatever I think and want........
Right now the government is providing liquor and wine for me and my family......
My children are taking drugs.......
And tomorrow we are planning to go to march demanding for guns from government.....
Why? Nothing just self-security purposes.......
Say I kill u for my pleasure and u take revenge for ur pleasure.....

Home? What Home? Do u call this place Home?..........

U build Luxury Houses for making a shelter to this body.........
But never thought of protecting your own soul of darkness and sorrow........

U generate electricity to glow the night..........
But u made ur precious day life dark.........

U have made furniture at home to relax ur body........
But made ur resting body just as a patient about to pass out in a hospital.........

U have build vehicles to move ur flesh from one place to other.......
But will u ever have moved ur heartfelt feelings forward or always was lost in dreaming of reputation and money?..............

U made porn films for your entertainment.........But ever found a soul mate and had found satisfaction............

Humanity I ask u........U have had got everything u wanted......Didn't you?

U made your own rules, Had money, Had Luxuries, Had build Reputation, Had power felt our world, Had a brain of intelligence and used ur creative and genius ideas in many aspects of making and prospering a society and cities of population........
But I ask U one thing.........
Do anyone ever had ultimate satisfaction........
Satisfaction of life........
Satisfied after u achieved whatever u aimed for ?........
Is there an end to your desires?.......

Why come humanity started to judge a person who always has desires, aims, and passions as great personas and character built people........
When the ultimate goal is to make this world of ur satisfactory for your own self..........

And does satisfaction will be complete after getting what u aimed for?
Are u sure that there won't be any comas or question marks?
Does the word "LIFE" has a "full stop" i.e "." .........

So until the end, u are just going to be running around searching for something and something more but never finding completeness.....

What do u think love is?
Is love is first time fall?
Is love something u just fall for?
Love is a strike of coincidence or what?
First sight love? Truly love just happens at first sight?
Or just by deciding that u will spend ur rest of your life with a stranger u have seen just a few minutes? And have immediate sex with that person? Done that's it right?.........

There is a big need to question society........
Right now there is a higher need to teach society and a better understanding of social human behavior is essential........
And making changes even in the evolution of depth of human feelings is necessary with changing environments.........Because imbalances of needs of brain, body, and heart will cause trouble and lead to destruction.........

Only faith, compassion, forgiveness......and knowledge can save both inner world and external world.....Build strong characters and essence of oneness with everything and then one can reach the ultimate goal of satisfaction in life.......

Live happily.......
Cherish every moment.....
Never compare yourself with anyone, because they have different experiences in life as living.......
Be fearless......
Build your self.......
Check ur inner self, keep it still and unwavering......
Look around and feel blissful.....
Be careless sometimes and not to worry much....because u care and worry about ur inner self more.....
Connect to great inner self endlessly......
Guide your own path with love......
And guide others with selfless service.....
Make others strong......
Because a strong society, strong thinking, wide knowledge, and heartful of peace......will only make u feel more satisfied.......